All about me

It had been months the last time I wrote here... Time really pass however I feel I am still stuck in the same spot, why am I not moving on...? Seems like time has passed, people has changed or rather everything has changed but my heart still remain the same... I miss him... I missed those old days...


I know nothing in this world can replace those days we spent together, the love I had for him. I still keep my promise, in my lifetime, the one I love most will be him... My dear, do you still feel the same as me? I hope not. Hope that you are doing very well and move on with your own life... This is the only thing that I can pray for you and quietly supporting behind you. I know I cannot be so selfish to let you know about my feelings and affect you indirectly. Here is the place that I can confess all my feelings.

Soon, we have been apart for a year. However, when times that comes to think of you, someone remind me of you, places that we had been or explored together, my heart seems to be bleeding away, tears started to hang on my eyes. I could not help it, the feelings just keep coming back. I could only cry out when times that I am drunk or when I am all alone. When times I missed you, I could only pull out my ez-link card "I love you no matter what" and look at the neo-print we took together. I still remember when you first gave me the ez-link card, I asked you if the phrase stated on the card really what you means from the bottom from your heart and you replied "yes", how naive I am to believe that, everything become shattered and smash the day we leave each other's path.

Now, I am busy and stuck with work that I do not like at all, no prospect at all. I hang out with friends or my boyboy whenever I have extra time but still I still have time to come of think of you, why is this happening... I feel so miserable and shameful of myself.

Recently few months ago, when the times I missed you, I would keep listening to this song "Bai She Feng Che - Jay Chou". I guess only this song can keep me going... As there is this few sentences saying:
"we shouldn't have meet up just because for the sake of meeting, thank you for letting me award of it as I am waiting the time we can spend forever"

Thank you for appearing in my life as I have learn a lot of things from our relationship...